I never thought I was so weak.. I thought I would be stronger and back on my feet and to hay with everything.

I haven't blogged in ages, I haven't done anything creative in ages. I still have trouble picking up my camera. I just hate how I am right now.. it's so not me.

I've always been a positive person. Right now, I just feel like a huge weight on me... holding me down.

This last week my body seems to want to take back everything it has lost in the last month and a half. I sleep at night then take 2 -3 naps during the day.. It's like I can't sleep enough.

I'm also ravenous. For so long I couldn't eat anything, now it seems there could never be enough to fill me.. I'm wondering if I want to cram myself so much to the point of feeling so stuffed, that I can't feel pain anymore.. that I would just explode first.

I guess most of you may already know about this is you read my regular blog.. not that i have been in the mood to do very much lately.

2 weeks ago, my husband came home and told me he had met someone and was leaving. Very plain and simple.. 30 minutes later his car was packed and he left. While I thought he was out working, he was simply screwing around with a workmate.

If you want to read about it.. I won't retell how it all came down here but you can visit my blog at www.eury.blogspot.com and it's all there.

It's been a rough couple of weeks.

As if I didn't have enough crud falling on my head.. this Tuesday, my motherboard let out a puff of magic smoke and died taking with it the processor and ram. Seems a faulty power supply was to blame.. so that had to be replaced also.

I guess it feels a bit weird to have a second blog.. since once you've written in one.. what do you have left to write in the other?... and copying and pasting just seems like cheating somehow.

I've often thought of having a second blog but an anonymous one.. where nobody would ever know it was me, where I could be brutally honest and not have to be careful if someone will read it or not. It would be like a real journal, the Dear Diary type... the kind you lock up with a miniscule key and then hide away under your mattress. A place to write about all the things that you don't think people c

Well, just a very short note because it is very late, but this new site just feels good to me. A new beginning, fresh ..like the springtime. Oh.. and except for Zee, I think I'm the very first member to sign up! Isn't that the coolest thing! Yay! Congratulations, Zee! :-)