Just a note for anyone who cares to read. Some of who I am and what makes me tick. I am silly and immature, even at 33 with 3 kids. At the same time I have lived enough of a hard life to be wise beyond my years in many aspects. I can throw fits when I dont get my way, and I get my feelings hurt easily. I take too much personally even when I know I shouldnt. I am bipolar and have OCD - and take meds for it. Sometimes they dont work. I dont hold a "real" job outside my home because I dont play well with others. That is why I freelance - no one in my way - just do what I am ask and submit from home. The last time I had a real job was in 1995, at a newspaper, and I had a hissy fit because I was tired of being an ad photographer and wanted to be staff and do the cool stuff. The cars and real estate were boring so I quit. In all reality It was a stepping stone and I missed the point of what my boss was trying to teach me. So I missed out on that next stone as well. Hissy fits arent good - learned that lesson the hard way - but still prone to them at times. They always worked with my daddy LOL! Yeah reality isnt the same is it? I am trying hard to change things about myself that I dont like, get out into the world more and connect with other people more. That is something I have sheltered myself from for such a long time for so many reasons. People scare me - rejection the most of all - so I avoid them. But I am trying. So pardon my hissy fit, Im on to the next stepping stone. Maybe this time I shall pay attention.